Meditation on Rom 1:21
[Rom 1:21 NASB] 21 For even though they knew God, they did not honor Him as God or give thanks, but they became futile in their speculations, and their foolish heart was darkened.
One of the struggles in my life is that I find that my fear of bad things happening or my sorrow over losses becomes greater than any thankfulness I have over answers to prayer or events that speak of God’s grace. I know that an unthankful attitude is one of the worst dangers that to me spiritually that exists, yet to actually feel thankful or joyful is at this time hard to enter into even when good things happen.
Ultimately, as I worship God I should be able to open myself to being thankful for my sins being paid for by the Messiah Jesus on the cross and the new life I now have in HIM by the power of the resurrection. Each time I take communion I am called to be thankful and joyful in the great salvation offered. This is in light of the reality is that I should be in hell, justly condemned for my many sins. One of them being an unthankful heart.
So, what can I do?
I can remind myself of how since I deserve hell any struggles, losses, or trauma in this far less than what I deserve. I must more deeply believe that I have “earned” no good things in my life but that they are all by grace alone. I can also remind myself of all the good things I have and not take them for granted. One of which I can tell God about my fears, pains, struggles, and grief with an assurance HE cares and that my sharing this with HIM will be responded to with giving me grace to meet my needs because of my High Priest Jesus who intercedes for me. God has not just had grace on me but provides me daily grace for daily needs. HE is merciful to me even when I am unfaithful, HE is faithful.
So I must preach to myself the gospel. Ask the Holy Spirit to bear the fruit of thankful joy in my heart. To take from me the heart of stone and replace it with the heart of flesh. Asking the redeeming Creator to open my eyes to see and my ears to hear of all the abundant care, comfort, and concern HE has for me in Messiah Jesus.
Thank you LORD for loving me even when I lack thankfulness. Amen